Worry

My heart feels tight and clenched in a fist, my mind is racing, obsessing over something I have no control of at this moment.  I know intellectually that worrying is a complete waste of time that the mind reverts to in order to feel it is helping to alleviate the problem but all it is really doing is wasting energy.  I know this, but my reaction of panic is hard to ignore.  I jump to conclusions, expecting the worst almost immediately, I end up having to take something to calm down before my mind blows yet another scenario up into epic proportions.  I just want to know everything will be okay 100% and I want to know now.  Worrying.  A waste of time and a habit I frequently indulge in.