Tomorrow

Unknowingness
That sick feeling at the pit of your stomach that you may at any time walk in on something horrible that you have no control of but you feel you need to go in anyway no matter what you are going to see.  There is a feeling of protectiveness, others lives and daily needs being met depend on you showing up.  You want to do so much more and spend quality time with each and every one of them, but the clock keeps ticking and you are running just to meet their most basic care.  A few may get an extra moment of your time but you feel so guilty choosing, leaving so many others without much more than a quick I love you all and will get to you tomorrow ,if I am lucky. For some, tomorrow never comes, and you are left wishing you spent more time you never even had to begin with,cherishing their last moments with them, and only wish to see them just one more time.