Afraid

Just want to rewind
Go back to when it was all okay
The present is too painful
As I try to dull my senses
Stop thinking of reality
I am selfish
I can remove myself from this situation
Willingly. As I so choose
There is no going back and pretending
For you
You are faced with the truth
An emptiness I do not know or understand
I want to reach out to you
Tell you I love you
And you will be okay
I am afraid to say a word
So instead I
Rewind
Go back to when it was okay
Stop thinking of reality and try to dull my senses because I am selfish, because I am afraid