Price

Grasping to hold each delicate finger on your hands as they slip through without even an acknowledgement.  I am here to save you, to try my hardest to prevent something from happening that has already been written.  I stand in the crowd spewing hatred back at the naysayers, I am invisible. I have no voice.  In truth I was probably one of them, how dare a man claim to be the son of God. This is blasphemy
 He must be stopped at once
  Perhaps I am.a woman huddled in the corner knowing this is wrong but too afraid to speak up for what will happen to me. I've done it before.  I Will surely do it again
  Please forgive those of us so.many of us that would have stood and done nothing out of fear of repercussions. You paid our price.  We are eternally grateful for your love.  It can never be repaid.  Amen

Curiosity

If I could dive deep into the recesses of your mind I would tread water round eloquent words so plentiful, so on point, they would intrigue my curiosity to delve deeper, into the dark abysss.  I would tunnel through the depths of your sharp wit careful of the jagged edges diving lower until I found myself covered by the brilliance of your story, mesmerized by your magic as you always seem one step ahead, your thoughts culminating into new ideas as I find myself  sinking, sinking to the bottom, gasping for air.  I race to the surface, the lightness and buoyancy of your gentle words keeping me afloat.  I am blessed to be exposed to your genius, privileged to have you in my life and proud to call you my friend.

Scoot

Please stay with me
Hold on
For I cannot live my life without you
I know your years are numbered
You are tired
But you still smile at me when I speak to you
You make me feel like the grandest cook
Boiled beef over your dry food and you are in heaven
You would fight to the death for that bowl of food.
I know you are getting older and taking meds for your heart, a heart that beats quietly on most days, but rushes too fast. Too intensely, when you aren't feeling your best
I only hope in this lifetime you realize how much you are loved, and how you have been there for me since day one, and I promise to be there for you, to not give up on you, as we are infinitely connected.  You are my best friend and I pray for you every day, I hate leaving you home alone as I think you belong by my side, each day, each moment, I don't want to miss you at all.  Stay strong for me, let me know when the burden is too much and I will help you
  We are infinitely connected, and will always be by each other's side, in body, in spirit.  I Love you Scoot.
Mom

Bells

I heard a gentle ringing in my ears
Bells so light and delicate each note seemed to whisper in the morning light.
It was the sound of angels laughing
Or faeries twinkling as they shook off
The morning dew.
I've never heard anything so magical
In my life
I could chalk it up to just another dream
But the ringing, so gentle, so harmonious,
Resonated with me the joys of both heaven and earth.

Clarity

I don't know why
You are doing what you are doing
I cannot feel
What you have been feeling once twice
Three times
If only I can get in your head
To help you
To save you
If only I could save myself
I wish I could say choose with logic
Not with emotions
I have not been there
I have no choice
I must stay silent
Just know I love you no matter what
Soon clarity will be yours
And open a path through the thick woods

My sentiments exactly: wept

My sentiments exactly: wept

wept

I wept for you today.  Big ugly loud crying as I couldn't take it in.
I am completely in shock you are blind
When I last saw you you could see but barely
You sat on the flóor, disoriented, crying,
I had to help you find your food your water, your warm bed because you are so frail.  I wept for you, for someone that has been sick for so many years without an answer and now in your old age you are being robbed of your sight.  I am still shaken to my core, physically ill that you cannot be helped despite everyone doing their best to care for you.  I just want to bring you home and spoil you for the rest of your days because without your vision, you are lost and scared.  I wept for you today, a deep ugly ugly cry and pray you will soon be OK.  I love you Amelia. My Bedilia